I’m laying in bed, terrified. All day I’ve felt as though I’ve just skipped a stair and am desperately trying to regain my composure, or I’ve forgotten something very important. Something in my gut just doesn’t feel right.
Has something happened to my mum? Did I make a big mistake at work today? Am I feeling guilty because I haven’t spoken to that friend I used to work with four years ago? Am I neglecting my dog because I only walked him for 20 minutes today? Was it rude that I didn’t say “bye” to my colleague? Am I not eating enough fruit and vegetables?
When most people think of anxiety, they imagine a pounding heart and sweaty palms. And indeed those physical sensations are very much features of panic. But the lived experience of anxiety is so much more than feeling worried or on edge.
People who live with anxiety suffer a whole host of unusual symptoms that we rarely talk about – and it’s time to lift the lid.