I may have mentally reached the twilight of my child bearing years, but physically it is broad daylight in terms of my fertility. I have at least 10 years of fecundity ahead of me.
This is a good thing, yes? Usually it would be.
But, personally speaking, I have two children already. And while they have brought untold joy to my life, the truth is, we’re done.
There were a few days at the end of last year in which I worried that I might be pregnant again. My period was 9 days late and my boobs hurt like heck.
For those few days I found myself in the unenviable position of choosing to keep the baby or to terminate. I knew I was leaning towards terminating. I didn’t even know if I was pregnant, but I knew there was no way I could keep the baby. Not that I would need to justify that decision, but frankly I have to be at work, at least part-time, for my own wellbeing, and I can not afford to have three kids in childcare.
In the end I wasn’t pregnant. That’s a good thing because despite the fact that I am pro-choice in absolutely 100 per cent of circumstances, it’s not a choice I think I would be able to make for myself easily or without grieving. After all, I know what kind of life my husband and I create together.
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