'A psychic refused to do my reading. I didn't know that was possible.'

If you want to support independent women's media, become a Mamamia subscriber. Get an all-access pass to everything we make, including exclusive podcasts, articles, videos and our exercise app, MOVE.

I've always been the one in my friendship group who's a little "woo woo", if you will.

You know the type… I've dabbled in making vision boards, messed about with the odd crystal necklace that promises to enhance my love life, and written in my manifestation journal by the light of the full moon. You get the vibe.

But I always thought I'd draw the line at seeing a psychic.It just seemed like a surefire way to spend money I don't have… all with the potential of piquing my anxiety with warnings of doom, or ruining the surprise of meeting the love of my life in an unexpected street corner meet-cute (a girl can dream!).

Watch: Mamamia Out Loud sits down with a Tarot Reader. Post continues below.

That all changed when a group of friends bought me a voucher to see a psychic as a birthday present.

That's how I found myself one Friday afternoon in an oddly corporate CBD office waiting to meet 'Angel', the clairvoyant who was about to reveal all, or so I thought. The anticipation felt like an odd mix between pre-first-date jitters and the rush of nerves before a job interview.

In came Angel, and boy did she look the part. I'm talking wispy curly hair, thick-rimmed glasses reminiscent of Harry Potter's Divination teacher Professor Trelawney, and a flowing top that perfectly befitted mystical, whimsical energy.

We exchanged pleasantries before she sat down across the table from me, and kicked things off with a few key details like name, birthday and place of birth. So far, so good.

She then asked what I wanted to focus on in my reading and I quickly identified my pre-determined topics: career direction and my future prospects with a boy I was dating (let's call him Mason).

But then, a look of deep concern coloured her face, and things swiftly went south.

"Sorry, I actually can't do this," she said.

Sorry, what? I honestly thought she was joking. A psychic reading I'd already paid for wasn't exactly a place I thought I'd experience rejection.

"This is rare for me," she continued, "but the level of scepticism I'm picking up in your aura is very unsettling and anxiety-inducing for me. I would be exposing my gifts to risk should I continue with the reading. I've only encountered the situation a couple of times, but it just wouldn't be safe for me to go on."

After a few wide-eyed blinks, I responded, "Um, are you sure?"

But Angel was already halfway out the door, assuring me that if I called the centre back they could arrange for a different clairvoyant to take me on instead.

"Or perhaps transfer your voucher over for a Reiki healing session instead, it might help with transferring some of that energy that's forming the block," she added, in a tone that was hard not to perceive as condescending.

So there I was, having been rejected… by a psychic.

Once I got over the initial offence (there was no way in hell I would be booking back in for Reiki) I had to know whether this had happened to anyone else.

After all, I counted myself as open-minded, spiritual… and suddenly I'd been branded a sceptic?!

So when psychic and tarot reader Evelyn Santoro came into the Mamamia offices to conduct readings, I jumped at the chance for answers. Thankfully, Evelyn didn't turn me away, and seemed to read me without any trouble.

"What I can suggest," Evelyn told me after my reading, "is that perhaps because of your inquisitive nature, or your ability to just sit quietly and listen without giving too much away, the psychic may have felt judged, sending her own anxiety up a few levels. People in general look for acceptance, and some psychics even more so, particularly those who are still building confidence in their intuition or experiencing impostor syndrome."

Listen: Jessie, Holly and Amelia sit down with tarot card reader Evelyn for personal one-on-one sessions to ask all their deeply private questions. Post continues below.

Evelyn has been doing readings for more than 25 years, so I asked if she'd ever encountered anything similar herself. She's never declined a client, but has experienced readings that took a dark turn.

"One time I was asked impatiently when someone was going to pass on, because the enquirer was waiting to see if they'd get a slice of the inheritance. I thought that was inappropriate and quickly changed the subject," she said.

"I highly doubt the psychic you saw encountered a dark question from you, so I really believe this speaks more of her own insecurity than anything about your energy."

After my psychic experience, I realised I've probably got a ways to go in terms of not letting my day (okay, week) be derailed by a stranger I'm almost certain to never see again. But my chat with Evelyn did help ease my feeling that maybe something was wrong in the deep, dark, twisty corners of my mind.

And I'm at risk of sounding like a boy about to break your heart here… but my advice if you ever get rejected by a psychic?

Just remember: it's not you, babe.

Feature Image: Supplied.