
Recently I found myself in a same–sex relationship. I never imagined myself having to explain to my family and friends that I like girls… and boys. Explaining my situation was something that took time. Something I had to think very carefully about when trying to help people understand.
“No, I do not have a preference, no I cannot put a percentage on it and no, this does not change who I am.”
Some explanations took longer than others, some didn’t seem to mind and others just didn’t understand. But that’s okay, because throughout this process I learned the most important lesson. How to love myself.
In the beginning, I didn’t know what these feelings were. Were we just friends? Is this just some weird kind of friendship thing? Maybe I’m just being silly. I tried to fight the feelings and question them as much as possible, rationalising the fact that we were just friends, right? Wrong.
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Fearful of what everyone was going to say, I tried to hide this little ‘thing’ that my girlfriend and I had developed. However, as the days grew into weeks nothing had changed, the feelings were all still there but stronger than ever. As my feelings evolved I began to quickly realise, if this is what makes me happy, what makes me feel so good inside, why should I fight it? So I stopped. I stopped fighting the feelings.