
As told to Ann DeGrey.
For three years, Toby and I had built a wonderful life together. It wasn't perfect, and that was mostly due to my bad habits. Still, I really thought we were both happy. Toby was a kind, loving, and reliable man who always made me feel safe.
We had our differences, of course. He hated my shopping habits and often complained that I spent too much, but I worked to get it under control. I had even tried to fix my other flaw; my messiness.
Toby was obsessed with order. He liked our home to be sleek, minimalist, everything in its place. I, on the other hand, had always been a little chaotic. But for him, I had changed. I had even hired a professional de-clutterer to help me transform our house into the neat, structured space he loved. Everything felt right — until the day I found his escape plan.
I was looking for a spare phone charger. Toby had a work drawer in his study where he kept random cables, batteries, and other tech bits. I opened it without a second thought, and noticed a black leather notepad lying on top of a folder. I hadn't meant to snoop, but something about it caught my eye. I opened it, expecting to see meeting notes or reminders. Instead, my heart stopped. Page after page, in his neat handwriting, was a detailed plan for him to disappear.
He'd written everything down, right down to the fake name he would use. There were notes on bank accounts I didn't recognise and a rental property in Tasmania that he had told me his ex-wife got in the divorce — a lie, as it turns out. It was Toby's all along. There was even a detailed timeline of when and how he would leave.
March 21: Tell her you're going interstate for a conference. Brisbane?