In 2001, a then 31-year-old Mariah Carey tottered on to the set of the popular MTV show Total Request Live pushing a cart full of ice cream.
Her appearance, according to flustered host Carson Daly, was completely unannounced. The singer proceeded to perform a striptease of sorts, removing her lavender t-shirt to reveal a halter top and shorts, before passing out icy poles to baffled audience members.
“If you don’t have ice cream in your life, sometimes you might just go a little bit crazy,” she said.
It was very clear to see that all was not well.
Soon after, on 25 July 2001, Carey checked into a New York hospital with what was described as “an emotional and physical breakdown” brought on by exhaustion.
Two weeks later she was released from the psychiatric facility. And a year after that, seemingly recovered, Carey insisted in an interview with USA Today, that it had been “burning the candle at both ends and in the middle” that had caused her meltdown.
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But on Wednesday, almost 17 years after these events took place, Carey told us a different story. One she’d kept hidden while living in “constant fear” that it would be exposed.
During that hospital stay, she was diagnosed with bipolar II disorder.
“Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me,” Carey told People magazine.
“It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love — writing songs and making music.”
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