As I watched my babies through the glass, tears streaming down my face an elderly man walked past.
“Selfish f**king bitch” he snarled at me. “Typical of your lot.”
His words hardly registered, at the time I was too frantic about my two children – aged just four-weeks old and 23 months – strapped in their car seats centimetres away and yet unable to be reached.
I had locked my kids in my car. It had taken just a moment’s distraction, just a fraction of thoughtlessness.
In seconds I had gone from the midst of a calm ordinary day to my world spinning.
My two children, both under the age of two, one only four weeks old were in danger and it was my fault.
I write this in the wake of US country star Carrie Underwood doing the very same thing.
She announced to her social media followers that her dogs had managed to lock her five-month old son in her car. She was forced to break a window to free the two dogs and her baby boy.
For me it wasn’t the dogs. It was simply my fault.
I had stopped to get a coffee. Blinded by the exhaustion that only the mother of a four-week old knows incredulously I parked the car, loaded myself up with bags and belongings, with the kids still strapped into their car seats I pressed the lock button on my keys while the doors were open. For some reason I still can’t get my head around the fact that I threw them on the front seat after picking up a bag, before shutting the door, and walking around to then try and open the back door to let my children out.
But it was locked and the keys were inside.
What a bloody idiot I thought later.
At the time I simply though oh my f**king god what have I done?