In her brand new memoir Not That Kind Of Girl, Lena Dunham has revealed that she was raped in college.
“There were a few things in this book that I was terrified to put into the world,” said Girls actor/creator Lena, 28, in a recent interview with NPR Books.
“The chapter about date rape in the book was a really, really terrifying thing for me to put into the world,” Dunham said.
“It was a painful experience physically and emotionally, and one I spent a long time trying to reconcile. At the time that it happened, it wasn’t something that I was able to be honest about. I was able to share pieces, but I sort of used the lens of humour, which has always been my default mode, to try to talk around it.”
The Emmy Award-winning star didn’t even know how to define the incident at the time, and blamed herself. “I think I had just felt that something was very wrong,” she said of her feelings following the event. “I had felt that something had happened and I remember thinking ‘Can I ever be the same?’… I was at a party, drunk, waiting for attention — and somehow that felt like such a shameful starting-off point that I didn’t know how to reconcile what had come after. But I knew that it wasn’t right and I knew in some way that this experience had been forced on me.”
“When I shared it with my best friend and she used the term ‘you were raped’ at the time, I sort of laughed at her and thought like, you know, what an ambulance-chasing drama queen. I later felt this incredible gratitude for her for giving me that… gift of that kind of certainty that she had. I think that a lot of times when I felt at my lowest about it, those words in some way actually lifted me up because I felt that somebody was justifying the pain of my experience.”