The lengths you go to when you are in love with a compulsive cheater.

There are certain things you tell yourself when you're in love. That people make mistakes. That trust can be rebuilt. That what you had is worth saving.

Most of us don't anticipate the sick feeling that comes from being both right and devastated. But when you love someone who cheats compulsively, love becomes a series of negotiations: with your gut, your boundaries, your dignity.

You might find yourself doing things you never thought you'd do. Justifying the behaviour you once judged in others. Enduring a cycle of betrayal, apology, and repair.

Khloé Kardashian knows that story all too well.

Watch: Kim Kardashian speaks her mind on the Tristan Thompson and Khloé Kardashian cheating scandal. Post continues below.

In a recent episode of Call Her Daddy, Khloé spoke candidly about the lengths she went to in order to save her relationship with compulsive cheater, Tristan Thompson, and just how dark things got for her in the process.

"There was a time that I couldn't even go outside because I was so embarrassed to even look at people," said the 40-year-old on the podcast.

"It was obviously something that I had to process… but I'm not going to deny that I wasn't at that low of a point… that's how dark it got for me."

Khloé has experienced infidelity a few times in the past. In 2009, she met basketball player Lamar Odom. After a few weeks of dating, they got married.

Khloé filed for divorce in 2013, allegedly due to the basketballer's use of alcohol and drugs. She later discovered he hadn't been faithful.

"Lamar was so great at making me feel like I was the only one… I never speculated cheating … so I didn't know about cheating … until before the DUI," Kardashian told Howard Stern in 2016.

"It is humiliating on any level, but I found out he was cheating on me the majority of our marriage. I just didn't know."

Odom later confirmed the infidelity to Us Weekly, saying, "B-tches and THOTs came out of the woodwork. If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women. That wasn't the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my dick in my pants."

Then, in 2016, Khloé started dating another basketball player: Tristan Thompson. A year later, the couple announced they were expecting their first child.

Right before Khloé gave birth to their daughter, True, in April 2018, Tristan became embroiled in a cheating scandal.

Despite this, the couple rebuilt their relationship. But the basketballer cheated again in February 2019, kissing Kylie Jenner's close friend Jordyn Woods.

Khloé and Tristan would reunite twice more, with Tristan facing more cheating allegations during that time.

In 2022, it was announced that the couple was expecting their second child via surrogate, and their son Tatum was born in July that year. Khloé and Tristan have since split for good.

Now, the mother-of-two has opened up about her past relationships, explaining to Call Her Daddy why she let Tristan in the delivery room just 48 hours after learning that he had cheated on her.

"I agreed to have the cameras in the delivery room, because I wanted that for True, and I chose for Tristan to be there because it wasn't about me, and people couldn't get over that," she said.

"I don't know if that was the right thing. I just did what I felt was the right thing to do by saying to my daughter, 'Your dad was in the delivery room'. I felt like I couldn't make a permanent decision off of temporary emotions. I'm not going to hate Tristan forever, but I will never get that birth experience back. There are so many things I did for my child at that time."

In her first days with True, who is now seven years old, Khloé described feeling isolated in her house, surrounded by paparazzi. It was during this time that she rekindled things with Tristan after seeing how he took to fatherhood. But she always had her guard up.

"I always felt something wasn't right," Khloé said, adding that she doesn't regret getting back with Tristan as the pair would go on to have their son, Tatum.

"But that's something that I always remind myself, I could never fully get back there, and he knew that, and we would talk about it, and we even did therapy over it. I never could fully trust him, or I never felt safe around him again. I was just so hormonal and new."

She added that if they didn't have a baby together, she doesn't think she would have stayed with Tristan.

When announcing that she and the basketballer were expecting their second child, Khloé said she felt "so ashamed".

"I already knew what everyone was going to say about me, and I already knew in my gut that [the cheating] was probably going to happen again. That sounds idiotic. But now I know, in hindsight, that's what that feeling was, of never feeling safe with him again. But at the time, I couldn't identify what that was."

The hardest part, said Khloé, was letting down her younger siblings, Kendall and Kylie, as she had always reinforced leaving relationships that weren't serving them.

"I don't think they would ever admit that I let them down, because I don't think that they realise how much I saw in their faces."

Khloé also spoke about reuniting with her ex-husband Lamar after 10 years of not speaking. She called her time with the basketballer "one of the best chapters of [her] life", but said that it "also took away so much of [her] innocence."

"Lamar and I have so much history and to not talk to someone in almost 10 years, and then to be around them, I didn't know what to expect. I was nervous. He was clearly very nervous," she recalled of the reunion.

"We were there for four and a half hours… I sort of blacked out, and it was just my trauma taking over. I noticed myself being short or snappy, and I didn't like that version of me, and I'm sure he didn't like that version of me, and maybe I triggered him in different ways. But I really love that I got that experience with him. I think there's so much more that needs to be said and done. But I don't know if I need that right now."

Despite her past, Khloé said she is still a "hopeless romantic" and would love to get married again one day.

"I believe in love, and I think it's beautiful, and I love the union of marriage. I respect it so much."

Currently, however, the Kardashian sister is happily single, and has been for over three years.

"I think I need to work on things with myself. I'm really happy. I don't feel lonely, I don't feel any of that stuff. I feel great," she said.

"I've worked on my confidence so much, and I've gotten that back, but I don't know how confident I am in trusting myself when it comes to picking men, just because of my past. 

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