Dear Mum,
It’s been 391 days since you left. That’s 391 mornings of waking up with a knot in my stomach that I’ve now realised will probably never go away. Some days it takes it takes a little while to hit. You have those few moments of ignorant bliss before your mind catches up and reminds you your life has been indelibly changed.
It’s funny when I say that to people, that my life has completely changed over the past year. Most people think that’s since The Bachelorette, because I’ve moved cities, changed jobs, got a boyfriend and have become more recognisable when I walk down the street. And of course those things are new and different too. But it’s the gaping hole you have left that I really mean when I say my life’s changed, because that’s the one thing I know I will never, ever get used to.