
by Alexa
I did a boudoir photography shoot shortly before becoming pregnant.
I lost 25 pounds to help control my blood pressure before pregnancy put its strain on my heart, and I hadn’t been at that weight since high school. I wanted a record of that body, before I shared it with a new little human. It felt so satisfying to take in all of my sexy lingerie; to tighten those cords of my corset. I had done it! I was smoking hot!
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Yes, that is what went through my head, despite years of feminist thinking, of body positivity, and of trying to accept myself as is. I know intellectually that thin does not equal sexy, but this was a primal satisfaction that I couldn’t control. In spite of my best intentions, it wasn’t until I lost that weight that I felt sexy on that level.
