by REBECCA SPARROW
“Rebecca!” called out a voice from somewhere behind me.
My insides crumpled. Had I left my ATM card at the cash register? Had I dropped my driver’s licence and not noticed?
You see I was in the supermarket carpark of a small South Australian town. The type of town that has a population of 13,000 people. A town where I knew nobody. So when somebody calls out your name … it can only be a bad thing. Right?
“Rebecca!”
I turned.
And there in front of me was a woman with blonde hair and a wide generous smile. A woman who looked about my age.
‘Are you Rebecca?”
“Yes,” I said, possibly sounding weary. Or skeptical. Or both.
And that’s when the blonde woman – a woman I’ll call May* – gripped my arm, got tears in her eyes and started to talk.
About Mamamia. And how the site makes her feel connected to the world. About the fact she too has lost a child.
And we talked – for maybe 10 minutes or so – while Fin gurgled in the trolley and Ava hid behind my legs (and, you know, attempted to pull my pants down) about how much May loved the site. What it meant to her life. Even though she didn’t agree with all the opinions expressed (Me neither, May!). Even though she’d watched the site change so much since she first started logging on years ago.
It didn’t matter.
“It’s a place for me to just plug into the world, to read opinions, to feel a part of things, ” she said.
And I knew exactly what she meant. Because that’s how I used to feel (and still do feel) when I first started logging on to Mamamia back in 2008. Long before I ever became part of the Mamamia team.